I'm not tired yet...

So I'm pretty sure i won't be able to sleep yet...I have to work tomorrow night so i guess i'll just train my body and sleep in a little tomorrow...I'll go to bed after i fill this out...sorry no pictures i don't think I have any anyways...but just so you know...your prayers have worked and Ella Abbigail is home with her mommy and daddy and doing wonderful, I even got to feed her yesterday...it was glorious!

I am: a Sister, a friend, a daughter, a lover, sometimes a B&%$#, a roommate, a wild one, a best friend, a daughter of the King, and so much more than anyone could know!


I know: I wanna work on a different floor, and move back to Rochester someday

I want: to be home with my family getting ready for Christmas

I have: lots to get done!

I miss: My family

I feel: anxious

I hear: John Mayer...I'm listening to Danae's favorite songs....which she should probably make me a cd of!

I smell: nada

I crave: My moms turnovers!

I cry: a lot more than i used to!

I search: for answers...

I wonder: how long it will take... (good words danae i think it sums it up)

I regret: not being able to spend more time with my Gramma before she passed away, and fighting with my parents for so many years!

I love: knowing that I am loved by the creator of the universe

I worry: to much

I remember: laughing uncontrollably with my roomates, always and all of them!

I dance: anywhere and everywhere!

I don't: have my shopping done ;(

I argue: more than most people... try me!

I write: in my journal way less than i should

I win: arguments ;)

I lose: pounds! :)

I wish: you would see me like i see you!

I listen: to what you have to say, and take it to heart!

I can usually be found: in my room or the kitchen, or in my roommates room, no where else to go in our house!

I am scared: being alone.

I need: forgiveness, and LOVE

I am thankful for: the way God has blessed me with the best family i could have hoped for as well as some pretty amazing friends! :)

make over!

So, I know you've all waited a long time to see these, i realized too that once i posted them i didn't give you the full effect! but hopefully this will do!  So get ready!

This is my room before! icky sheets no bed spread and boring!

I was living out of suitcases! My clothes didn't fit in the small dresser my roommate let me borrow and i couldn't move my clothes in the closet to see what i had even!

Get ready folks!....here it is!

My new and improved room!

Totally not colors i ever thought i would pick! But i love it!

Dresser up close!

and the other side

The big picture

This is what i did with my jewelery it doesn't all fit in the jewlery box! Ooops i may have a problem, it barely all fits on the wall!

Picture sections up close! This is inbetween my window and closet...remember all those wholes they are under the paper and pictures that  i just stuck on the wall and for some reason everything looks a lot closer in this picture than it does in real life!

One of my favorite parts of my room! Thanks daddy for haning that dang darn stupid shelf! I won't ask again!...well at least not for a while!!!!!

Other up close picture section this is what i look at everymorning when i wake up and before i go to bed!

Well thats all folks! I'll update you on the kitchen soon! It's coming a long!!!! oh and a quick update on baby ella last i heard they retested her esophogus to make sure the leak had healed i haven't heard the results yet! But she doesn't have the tube in her nose anymore!!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord!!! The tube you see in her nose is O2 thats gone now too!!!!!!

What...2 days in a Row?

Update on baby Ella: She is doing quite well her lungs look good! I went to go see her today and she was sleeping the whole time :( but it's alright it helps her heal! :) They said she might get her chest tube out tomorrow (Friday). For those of you that don't speak medical terms, it a tube inserted into your pleural space or the area around your lung to help drain off fluid, and sometimes air. They also are going to start feeding her through the tube in her nose! She still hasn't had anything to eat. Don't worry she's getting nutrition through a PICC line or fancy IV in her arm!

Can't get over how precious this little angle is!

Keep fightin Miss Ella Bean! We love you!

It was an exciting day at 4010 Eileen we got fish! They are Kendra (cari's fish), Bridget (my fish), and Holly (Jessica's fish). They are named after the girls next door! We got three different ones, Kendra has a little bit of black, and Bridget has a little white and lipstick, and Holly is all gold baby!

After we got our fish we had a few errands to run, and we coudldn't leave the girls in the car so we took them into Micheals with us, I was working on a project for my room...more to come on that in the near future!

Here the fish are all settled into their new home!

Okay so that project, I would have official pictures posted but i'm not qutie finished with it all yet, and i wanted you to be able to get the full effect. But since there is a stupid Stud the size of texas in my wall what i wanted to do wouldn't work so this picture your seeing is the result of several failed attempts at hanging a picture. Needless to say there were no pictures hung in that area, okay just not the ones i wanted but still i had to cover the wholes, so taping of some pictures ensued....But like i said i'll post those pictures later!

Now dear friends of mine in MN, please be grateful that you live there and if you see my mom dad sister or brother please give them a big bear hug for me! I miss them something awful right now, I almost starte crying today at Noodles and company over Wi. Mac and Cheese, b/c well WI. is close to MN don't ya know, and well i just miss my family that bad! Now i didn't say i actually cried but i for sure welled up, but i was with a boy and well i didn't think he'd get it so i pulled it together and we didn't talk about the mac and cheese anymore.  I also don't want you to get to excited b/c i updated 2 days in a row you see i was off these last two days in a row so i could blog,even though it is 2:30 in the morning. But I work all weekend thats 3 nights in a row on 3 west commonly known as Fecal Feast, so i'm not so sure i'll be blogging so much, but don't worry project/room and kitchen pictures are coming soon, there are lots of changes happen 'round here!

Lots of Love

CaraKjersti

Update in pictures!

So I've been a little off kilter with out my computer and couldn't upload pictures with out, therefore could not truely update you in my life...so with the computer fixed...and the pictures loaded i will do my best to update you on some exciting and maybe not so exciting things in my life! But hopefully we can stay on top of this whole update you on my life thing, and bring you just a litte closer to me and my life here in cincinnati, where i know you all want to visit!

My good friend Luke recently got a puppy! His name is Silas, (i helped pick out his name, and being true to his name he is a very good companion). I love this little guy like he was my own, but he's not so i get by by being the puppy nanny, and spoil him rotten.  Although as of late i'm missing my probably not so little guy. In this picture Luke had just gotten him, and he is only 11 weeks old, and probably about 14 pounds, now he is about 25.  Silas is a rescue puppy, and is part lab, part alaskan husky, and maybe some chow, were not sure. But he is sweeter than a button, and already, sits, lays down, and shakes, were working on the roll over thing. He truely will put a smile on your face, and he still has yummy puppy breath, so it's fun getting kisses from him!

Me and Silas just hangin' out!

Next up, I went to Ball State to visit my cousin Ashley. She is working on her Masters! She is just "a girl living in an apartment tryin to get by" Actually i would say more than getting by!  Her apartment is super cute! It was so much fun for us to just hang out and get to know eachother better! We shall i say remet about 2 years ago at thanksgiving we hadn't seen eachother since we were babies. We had a blast going out to eat at a fun little place i think it was cajun food! and then rented a movie and cozied up with what else but a girls best friend, some oreos and other assortments of junk food! The next day we slept in, laid in bed and chit chatted and then watched another movie, and then went and met some of her friends, at a drag show that ball state was putting on, it was very interesting to say the least, then we went out for drinks and apps!

So excited i get to see this girl in 2 weeks!

Me and Ashley and our Junk food, this is just the beginning mind you!

We can't leave out Halloween! I at the last minute called up a friend to see what she was doing, and but of course there was a halloween party to attend, and I had to come up with a costume. My Aunt Amy had called me earlier to tell me that she had dressed up as me for halloween...a nurse. So I decided to be her in highschool.  Some gave the name flash dance. But whatever you call it, it's just more fun, when your dressed like this!

Since the roomies were MIA on Halloween we had our fun the night after and got all gussied up and went out for some random adventures! Cari's little sister made it down for fun with what Jessica's Fiance's co-worker calls The Bikini Team.  Hey i'll take it!  He meet us for the first time this night, and were not so sure if he can handle all of us, at least not with some back up from Landon.

Jessica, Cara, Leah and Cari....lovin our halloween themed Jell-o shots!

Introducing....ELLA ABIGAIL RUTTER!

We waited and waited and waited the whole nine months for this little, girl, we cried, and prayed, and laughed the whole nine mo. For this little girl, and we continue to do so. She arrived at approximately 8:30 Wed Nov. 5th, 2008. To proud mama Christina! She was 5 pounds 6 ounces...and were on sure of the length...i guess 21 inches...although i'm sure this is 2 long for this little bean!

Me at my happiest with a baby in my arms...and who wouldn't be happy with Ella Bean!

                   Jessica, Mama, Ella bean, and Me!

Please Pray for this little girl, she needs lots of it. The night after she was born she was having problems coughing up some phlem, which she had also had trouble with earlier in the day. She was also breathing very fast, so they took her to the Intensive care nursury. There they discovered she had what is called Tracheal Esophageal Fistuala, or TEF and Esophageal Aphasia. Long story short her esophogus did not connect to her stomach. She was quickly transfered to the RICNIC and Cincinnati Childrens Hospital, where they are taking very good care of her. She had Surgery on Friday, Nov. 7th, where they connected her esophogus to her stomach. She is currently still in the Intensive Care unit, and is fighting hard. Pray that she would come through this, like we believe she can, for her Mom and Dad as they watch their little girl, for there other son they have at home, pray for peace, and healing. Your prayers are felt, and appreciated!

In other not so sad news....

I got to see my baby brother and sister this last weekend! I drove up to Chicago on friday morning after i got called off on Thursday night...it was wonderful!

I left Cincinnati at about 9:30 and went and had lunch with my grandma at our favorite place, in the town square. Then it was on to Chicago, where i suprised my cousins...they didn't know we were coming, then i waited patiently for Nate and Danae to get there, and watch them suprise my cousins! On Friday we got pizza and just hung out with the cousins, thrown them around and such. On Saturday it was crazy bowling and more just hangin around, and sunday it was church, and then a day full of shopping! And back to cincy on Saturday!

The whole gang goofy bowling! Not pictured Aunt Amy, Uncle Dirk, and Uncle Scott who also dressed up.

Thrown some kids around...i got a work out both nights at this house, i came home just a little bit stronger!

Me and my sis showing off our Wacky back sides ;)

Me and my wacky brother!

Aunt Amy showing me what she looked like on Halloween, she only wishes she could be a cute cool nurse like me! ;)

And me and my name sake Jersti!!!!!

Well there you have it folks an update with pictures from my life for oct and nov, most of it is from the last week, I will get better at this as my life settles into a more regular schedule...oh wait...I lost my planner, so i don't even know my schedule!  eeeekkk....find it now!

I'm bored...

So this is my third night on night shift then i get 2 nights off. It is also my third night out on my own, they uped my patient load to 4 tonight they are all behaving themselves so that is good. Last night was a little crazy, i had a lady who wanted to get dressed at 2 in the morning which is fine...but she was already dressed (in a gown of course) but she was the host of the party that i apparently ruined, by letting crudy dudy's in her house! Oh my! OH and this was just humiliating to her. She also pulled her catheter out just an extra little treat, we of course put that back in! But in my boredom i found this little fun survey it's called "the random survey of strange questions" Lets check it out!


What is your best friend's Mom's name? Miss Jackie
Where is the weirdest place you have a mole? hmmm...the palm of my hand
Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? hmmm... I think Mr. Hougtan, my 9th grade english teacher
Have you ever made out in a movie theater? kiss a boy? eww ;)
What body part do you wash first? my arm
Do you have any peircings?yup 5
What's the strangest talent you have? i don't know!?! any ideas anyone?
Do you have an innie or an outtie? innie
What's your favorite flavored Pringles? original
Have you ever been tied up? probably
What was the last thing you ever got grounded for? hmmm probably talking back, or not doing what i was told when i was told to do it!?!
Do you parallel park or drive around the block? these days parallel park
Have you ever had two dates in one night? nope
How many times have you been cussed out? oh gosh, at work it happens pretty regularly with pt, they go crazy and well ya just dont' know what your gonna get.
Which shoe do you put on first? right
How old are you? 22
Have you ever been to a gay bar? no, but i have been to a drag show...very interesting
Is there one thing all of your ex's have had in common? what x's the guys i've gone out with on dates have all been taller than me which is always a good thing!
Did you french kiss before you were 16? wasn't even kissed!
Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? nope but i know people that have been cow tipping...thats what happens when you live near iowa
Who is the last person you think about before you fall asleep? i normally hit the pillow and start snoring
Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you? not that i'm aware of...anyone wanna come clean!?
What was your childhood nickname? Freak, beastie, caramarie (those are all courtesy of my best friend brianna...thanks friend) Bear
When is the last time you played the air guitar? oh gosh i dont' know
Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room? probably not when people were in it though!
What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving? changed my shirt
Have you ever bitten your toenails? NO...contrary to popular belief
How do you normally eat your cookies? yup
When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt? i dont' work out at the gym...but no
Name something you do when you're alone? watch T.V. clean, organize stuff...
Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt? eww gross...only dogs do that
How often do you clean out your ears? daily...or when the feel gross
Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? scrunch please
About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie? endless or so it seems
Do you have any strange phobias? ummm...i dont' know probably...I don't like peoples feet on me.
Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? probably i tend to do stupid things
Have you ever gotten caught farting while on a date? nope i'm sneaky
Do you want to bring sexy back? Already did ;)

Sorry for lack of pictures thats what happens when your computer is all screwed up and in MN with your dad, and your at work...they will come i promise you...i even found away to do it faster so be prepared for pictures and nothing else...but it could be awhile so bare with me while i just type at you!

no pictures....

I have no pictures for you b/c my computer is broken...but i feel the need to update well because i have not done so in an extreamly long time...and Pastor Ryan had to go and put a link to my blog...so i guess i had better get my butt in gear!

I'm at work right now it's my first night "by myself" I started with 3 patients but one went home b/c she was just hear for a blood transfusion she was a very sweet lady, i wish she could have stayed. So now i'm down to two! I like them alright, one is kind of grouchy and told me to leave her a lone! I will gladly oblige (sp?)!

You can go to my mom's blog www.cherikirk.blogspot.com to see the inbetween of my updates to my room and apartment. and when i get done organizing i'll put up new pictures...hopefully my computer will be fixed by then.

Well i guess i better find better things to do! haha hopefully i will get ya a few pictures shortly.

I am my mothers daughter!

Well those of you that know me at all would never disagree with this statement...or that i am my fathers daughter! Lets face it i got the best of 2 worlds!!!! But the title is meant to talk about my obsession with "my" kitchen...I share it with my roommates of course...but I have been deamed the Kitchen Natzi...or the kitchen lady.
I think this comes from my mother, i come from a very organzied for the most part kitchen and the way things are placed is in order of their use and how much we will be using them etc. it is also fairly clutter free!

Also my roommates have called me mom this would come to no suprise to most of you! I spent a lot of time cooking this last week...b/c i wanted to! Truth be told I love cookin' and bakin'! I have made in my opinion some pretty nummy dinners and like my mother I have to include pictures of what i've cooked!!

Yummy pull apart pasta...this was served with french baggett and dipping oil, and a white wine!!
A nummy cake...it's fun-fetti...i know lame it's from a box...but it was last minute and it's my roommates favorite!!!!!
This was my dinner tonight...it's very health it's a chicken salad made with yogurt!!!! So summer-e and fresh...I had this with some pita bread and hummus!!!!

And to think with all this cookin' and organizin' no one's snatched up this catch yet ;) ... I mean seriously!!

**Note: Not pictured is a yummy beef skillet dish i made, as well as nummy salads with seasoned chicken that me and my roommate cooked up last night...okay well there's a picture but we may have ate our dinner in our underwear and our hair in towels and well we'll keep this sight G rated for now!**

P.S. Can you believe it thats twice in one week!...oh and does anyone know how to make it not a link when you cut and paste that first part!?!?!

it's true...it's me!

So this will be short and sweet...because i'm watching a movie with my roommate! But I new i needed to post a few things so you knew i wasn't dead so this will sum up summer and moving back to ohio with pictures! Oh and b/c i'm lazy they are in no particular order

All the girls all dressed up for Emily's Greek wedding sooooo fun!
My first big purchase besides my new bed a new kitchen table!
Playing with my friend Christina's son Carson...such a little joy, and stubborn at the same time!
We kidnapped cari and took her for icecream and a movie and found the claddaugh bar! so we got a picture with our rings!

All the cousins at Drews wedding in Idaho...this was followed by a trip to yellowstone national park
Movie night with the girls...Look at baby Ella...these aunts can't wait to spoil her!
My crazy roommates gotta love um!
I became a nurse!
My fun fruit flowers from Mommy and Daddy for thats right Passing my boards!!!!!!!

How i spent my July in the pool and what could be better than having a best friend with you!
We also took a trip down town and learned a little something from the Mayo brothers
Went to a wedding in Indianna with the 'Rents" and saw some ol' camp friends!!!!
Got to go out to a fun dinner with the fam!
and go to Windom to see an ol' friend...College roomie!